Door Mat
Door mat for sale! Cheap!
As a woman, I have been lied to, cheated on, told that Im
stupid, told that Im ugly. I have been called a cow,
pig, walrus and told I need to lose weight.
I found a man whom I thought was different. He said he was,
just another lie. He told me I am beautiful. Told me not to
change a thing because I am not obese or a BBW (Big Beautiful
Woman).
I now find myself doing laundry for a man who wants to go fuck
other women. I also clean up after him and try to take care
of his every need. My life stopped the day I met him. I no longer
have my own personality nor do I have any of my old interests
or hobbies. Im useless to everyone else and to myself,
but I am very useful to him.
Stripping away the layers, one by one, he manages to alienate
my friends and family. They no longer want to be around me.
Phone calls go unanswered. Trips to their houses are met
with lame excuses before I can get a foot in the door.
So when do I get to become me again? Is it so much to ask that
my life remains in tact when I walk into a relationship?
Why cant HIS life be the one that stops? Is there
per chance some kind of rule book for this type of thing?
Until all the rules are all spelled out previously, I dont
think any relationship will be free from its problems.
But becoming a door mat for a man is not my idea of fun. Maybe
next year my New Years resolutions should be: 1.
To find a man who appreciates ME for ME; 2. Under no circumstances
will I again become a door mat!